where your treasure is, there will your heart also be.
Monday, February 26, 2007


If I close one eye, take in the truth, block out the lies; will this loneliness finally die?



no one will believe their live will turn out just kinda okay. we all think we are gonna be great. and from the day we decide to be who we really meant to be, we are filled with expectations. expectations of the people we will help, the difference we will make. great expectations of who we will be, where we will go.

but sometimes our expectations sell us short. sometimes the expected simply fails in comparison to the unexpected. and you gotta wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is what keeps us steady standing still; the expected is just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives.


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so whats the deal in heartbreaks anyway? do you get people who hang on to relationships sometimes? when all they do is say words to hurt each other? do you think there ever is a love so strong, a love that'll conquer all odds, despite its difficulty? well, i think that all we believe we love, is a lie. love is overrated. there isnt such a thing anymore. its a habit. and we 'love', because we have to, because we want to, because everyone else is doing it! and people just get together and break up, and at the end of the day, we just hurt ourselves all the same.


I am unraveling unbearably empty, and if this ground gives way I just hope that you'll catch me.


you want to work, to spend, to show. you want to talk, to smile, to feel. you want to run, to thirst, to drink. you want to love, to know it's real.


i do it on a whim, its rhyme without reason, whatever comes to mind, i'll pull it from thin air. i've learned to improvise, to fill my time. i dont want to live this life with no motivation, following this line, and i don't know why. but i've learned to capture time it's my redirection, i don't want to live this life, no i don't want to live this life, without reason.



yours truly

Monday, February 12, 2007


one of the hardest things to do is saying goodbye and letting go. it is as hard as breaking a crystal because you'll never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again. more often than not, they who go, feel not the pain of parting: it is they who stay behind that suffer, because they are left with memories of a love that was meant to be, a love that was.

we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone. unfair as it may seem, but that's the way love goes. that's the drama, the bittersweet and the risk of falling in love. after all, nothing is constant but change. everything will eventually come to its end without us knowing when, without us knowing how, without us even knowing why. and we must forget not because we want to but because we have to.

in letting go, sorrows come not as a single spy but in batallion. it seems that everywhere you go, everything you do, every song you hear, every turn of your head, every move of your body, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eye and every breath you take always reminds you of him. it's like a stab of a knife, a torture in the night. funny how the whole world becomes depopulated when only one person is missing. just imagine, there are billion people on earth and yet it seems you feel lonely and empty without the other.

sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same. and the worst part of letting go is that its the only thing to do. cause whats holding onto something thats not holding onto you. eventually it will all just fade away, and everything will be alright again.


cause i pray that you'll come back someday, but lets not count on that.


yours truly

Tuesday, February 06, 2007


so whats karma? like when you do something good to someone you get it back? like when you break someones heart, and get it back? bull? yeah bull. cause no matter how good you are to someone, you always tend to get some shit in return. and the person who gave you shit, well always goes away free. SO WHATS KARMA? hell, no one can explain it, not even alicia keys i tell you, cause shes dumb and she doesnt know whats karma either. maybe when i die i'll ask. cause feels like, hope, faith and dreams are all bullshit too. and if you believe in it, then you're a bigger fool for worshiping these feelings man made. isnt it? who wrote these rules and regulations? god? no. people. stupid people who has everyone wrapped around their fingers. maybe its because no one wants to get fined. so whoever invented money ought to be punched in the face cause its the dumbest invention ever. its got people fighting and screaming and dying and breaking up and selling their asses. i mean who the hell wants to do what? money does! so if your very in love with money, then you can go to hell, or rather, if your in love,then you can also do the same, cause your gonna get your heart broken very soon. cause love is bullshit too! is there such a thing anyway? maybe not maybe its a test maybe its a game maybe im getting too obsessed in blogging that it hurts to tell the world what im feeling and typing without punctuation. owells, whatever you do, please dont follow what im saying, because it only applies on me. and my house has just been repainted, my bedroom walls are red and black, come check-it-oooouuuuuuut!(HAHA)ohk not, their actually just white with a few rooney pictures, and the chemical smells are driving me craz-yy. and hello? CHEENA NEW YEAR IS COMINGGG, OMGWTFBBQ? food + money. muahaha, ok look, im a living example of being obsessed with the demon money. DAMN? someone tell me im not crazy please, cause lets face it, everyones obsessed with demon money, so everyone can go to hell! hah! gotcha! ohk. and is it just me or are the days getting colder? its the end of the world bitches, trust me, kill yourself while you can. bye.


yes i like you, i dont love you, i cant love you.


yours truly

Friday, February 02, 2007


yeah time heals all wounds, but dont take time, cause its not worth the wait. cause life goes on, and others out there are giving you all of their hearts to care for you, and dont make them worry. cause what your dragging your mind on, doesnt deserve so much attention. your life shouldnt revolve around someone who doesnt even give a shit, someone who has no time. well let me just say, theres no place like home, cause its when shit has been thrown on you that people you depend on all your life is there to help you clean it up, and comfort you. and tell you that everything's gonna be alright. cause thats all i actually wanna hear for so long now.


theres always hope, but dont count on it. its always there to disappoint. so just let go.


so dont go begging for love cause it will come finding for you. because love will find a way.


& all the memories fade with time, cause im too young to worry.


yours truly

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